Snip snippity snip snip Huzzah my shoes still fit

*** thiefed from angelwitch***




So, on a wonderful, much lighter note than posts previous-- I, Barbara, am having a decent day today. *yaay*
I trained another girl at work this morning and was satisfied to realize that yes... I am indeed still much quicker at comprehending new things than the average population. It gives me hope that maybe, just maybe I'm still sitting on a good deal of potential awesomeness... heck, I'm 21, right? So much time left to be wikked. *evil grin*
Haha... also the good moodage is probably has something to do with the conclusion I came to some time last night. It goes like this: Sure... things really suck right now... what can I do about it but get on with my life? I am a strong person and no situation, no matter how dismal... is insurmountable for me. Weak people give up, weak people give in and wallow. I got over that stage years ago, and I hate to say it, but I'm sure I've been through worse times and there will be still worse to come. I cannot let that make me stop enjoying the fact that I am alive and that there are people who love and care for me without question or condition. I must remain appreciative for everything that I have left to me... giving up is ungrateful.

On things (day to day): I've been finding more and more that I seem to have a lot more glitches in my personality than I did 3 weeks ago.. but, like everything else I must learn to deal with them in my own way and time. My temper's the bad thing, though... I've always had a rather mediocre fuse to begin with (I'm usually a pretty passionate person and anger is no exception) but right now... it's like any minor annoince will get me to melt-down stage in zero seconds flat. It is truly disconcerting. I feel as though I've lost control, lost my filter, tolerance... I guess systems are just on overload at the moment and I need to pool my base resources to function, which = AgroBarbara SUPER-EXTREME!!! ha ha! ^..^
Oh well... so yeah... if you've got to interact with me any time in the near future please do not take anything angry that I say to you personally... and there is no need to walk on eggshells or treat me lightly... just understand. You know?

feh. I'm tired of this post. I hope you are all doing well and those of you who are newly returned from Pennsic had a fantastic time. :)

*love to all*
B.